It’s been a minute since I’ve been blogging and I’ve missed it like crazy. The past few months have been a whirlwind to say the least! None of it was planned, it was a little scary, but definitely worth it.
We sold our house in Utah and within two weeks were packed up and moving to Arizona all while I was 7 1/2 months pregnant. Little things kept going wrong during this process and if I listed it all out, you would probably think I was making it up!
Just to scratch the surface, my son was given a bar with cashews in it (which he’s severely allergic to) so after one failed Epipen we had to take him to the hospital where they gave him another one. Then, two days later my daughter was riding on the back of my bike with my husband and her foot got stuck in the spokes of the wheel and it broke the lower portion of her leg. This all happened while we were packing up our house to move in two days.
At this point you’re probably thinking WHAT IS HAPPENING?! Buuuuuut it’s only the beginning. My kids and I left before Ben and stayed at my parents house for one night in Arizona before we moved in to the rental. Well, if you haven’t gathered already, Ruckus has terrible allergies. He has a list of food allergies, asthma and allergies to cats, horses and goats (which my parents happen to have all of) so I should have known better than to stay there but in my mind, I figured what harm could two nights do? We woke up after the first night and he was having terrible allergy attacks, was short of breath and could not get comfortable. You could tell he was in a lot of pain and I had hoped that his emergency inhaler would do the trick but it wasn’t helping in the slightest. I took him in to the hospital and they couldn’t believe how hard his body was working to breathe. We ended up staying the night and after lots of medicine, an IV and breathing treatments, he was finally back to his healthy self again.
To give you a little idea of why we moved back to Arizona, it was because we wanted Ben to go back to freelance photography because with his prior job, we rarely saw him. He traveled for long periods of time and it began to take a toll on all of us but especially on the kids. We love Arizona because this is the place we were both raised and we have lots of family and friends here but deciding to move back with no upcoming jobs scheduled, having to switch insurances mid pregnancy, not knowing where we would be living with Milo starting kindergarten and being nearly 8 months pregnant with all of this happening was scary.
The reason I am telling you all of this isn’t to complain, it’s to tell you about how even though everything seems like it can come crashing down at once, it will get better! It doesn’t happen in an instant and in our case, things just seemed to keep getting worse before they got better. But, if you work together as a team, you can make something great happen. I think what helped in our case was rather than to sulk on everything that was going wrong, Ben and I looked at each situation and thought, “how can we fix this or make it better?”. Don’t get me wrong, I had spurts of anxiety and my fair share of meltdowns but I knew if I sat there and dwelled on every terrible thing, nothing would get accomplished and nothing would get better. So, we tackled everything one by one. It didn’t get fixed overnight, even insurance took a good month to get worked out and is still a pain in my toosh, but it’s something we are striving to work out! I’m not sharing every single thing that was happening during this time because well, who wants to hear about every single problem, the big and the small? But you know what is crazy? Those three months where nothing seemed to go right, everything has turned around, EVERYTHING. Ben is now the creative director at an amazing company, shooting photos and doing what he loves, my kids are healthy, we figured out where we wanted to live, bought a house and even welcomed the most perfect baby boy into our family. Life doesn’t happen how you want it to but that saying about turning lemons into lemonade, I GET IT! Don’t get me wrong, I know there are plenty of scenarios that you can’t simply fix but hopefully by trying to take care of yourself properly and responding by looking forward, maybe the burden can seem easier.
I’m so lucky to have been able to lean on some amazing people in my life and I hope to be that person for them and for others. These crazy times do get better and end up being little blips in your past!
Lot’s of love,